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I woke up really early this morning because I was in great pain. It’s been extremely cold outside and my hip was acting as a barometer; letting me know that spring still hasn’t arrived. I got up to go to the bathroom and took a couple of painkillers to try and numb the stabbing pain that’s become my constant companion for the last few years.  As I lay there waiting for some sign of relief I closed my eyes and instantly music started playing in my head.  Like an old jukebox stuck on repeat. The same song had been playing in my head all night long and it managed to wake me up every couple of hours.  So instead of trying to escape back into sleep I leaned over and grabbed my iPad and opened up youTube and did a search for the song that had haunted me all night long.  It was “The Great Pretender” by The Platters.  And then it hit me!! I had been dreaming about my father again last night.  Singing and playing his guitar.  Singing that song over and over again to me like he did when I was just a little girl.
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Let Me Introduce Myself…..My Name is Malice

Well hello there,

Welcome to my nightmare!

I’ve wanted to write a blog forever…..but I didn’t know where to start. I have lots of stories to tell, and some of them are very dark. My life is a story of overcoming many obstacles and learning how to love myself.

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My mother ran away from home when I was 14. I was married for the first time 2 months before my 17th birthday. I have 2 grown kids who mean everything to me, without them I don’t think I’d be here today.  I have 2 sweet grandbabies who give my life  new meaning. I’m studying Criminal Psychology and Behaviour in pursuit of a degree. I’ve been homeless as a teenager on the streets of Toronto. I was a single mom for many years, and I’ve been married 3 times. I worked as a PSW in Palliative Care for many years, helping those walk the last miles of their journey here on Earth. I’ve worked in the corporate world and I’m all too familiar with sexual harassment in the workplace. And oh yes, I was raised in a cult!

I believe in being open-minded and discussing the taboo things that society likes to sweep under the carpet. I am trying to write a book about my life experiences, and I’m hoping that I can share my thoughts with all you out there in order to gain insight into some of life’s confusion. I hope that by putting my thoughts out on paper, it will empty some of the clutter in my head.